10.20.2002
AARGH! I am sooo confused and mad and stuff... I want to slap Kelly AND Lindsay, believe it or not. Kelly said this about Lindsay, and I quote: "ya wanna know something i think i'll just have to kill lindsay now....ya never know!????? and i quote "how anyone can be so blind to 'love' they ignore what's right in front of them." well this a little messege to lindsay, michael doesn't like you in that way! and i know it for a fact! because johnnie heard him talking a few weeks ago at football about the fact HE DOESN"T LIKE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok so get over it, he isn't even loyal like you expect! but don't take my word for i'm just blind! oh sure to what the fact that you were never a real friend to me. i thought we were for sometime, but you have proved yourself wrong again lindsay! well ya wanna know something you have been getting on my nerves too lately it's a two way street hun, things don't always go your way. for awhile that's how things were for me but now i'm happy and it's like you want to take that away from me! i've tried to include you, but you just back away like you are trying to make some point. well you are the point that you are not a real friend and that if you can't be happy nobody can! nikki isn't pissed at me i've told her everything, she approached me in line and i said was about to go get her but anyways she stood in line with me and johnnie, can you believe that? is she a traitor now? we all got along ok! ya know maybe after reading this and pondering over what i have said and noticed maybe you might want to talk but until then i'm still mad. " and then before that, Lindsay said: "How anyone can be so blind by the thing called 'love' they ignore what's right in front of them, I'll never know. I am about ready to kill Kelly and Johnnie. Yes, I know they're probably reading this, but I don't care. This is my blog and I can write anything I want in it, no one else has the password. So here's my story.Kelly and Johnnie have been getting on my nerves for quite sometime now, basically because they just don't care about us, her friends. At lunch, Kelly leaves us (her friends) and goes off to sit with Johnnie, when she is then pretty much ignored by him, from what we see at our table. If Kelly doesn't leave to go to sit with him, he comes over to our table, and sense our table has pretty much all the girls the guy's want at it, our table's already full anyways. So, Johnnie ends up taking one of our seats. If that wasn't bad enough, we have to then be ignored by Kelly and still have to put up with their little giggles and whispers. It's enough to make you sick.Nikki, Lauren, Kylie and I all sit at the end of the table that Kelly sits at. We all hate it. So today, Lauren and I were pretty much ignoring them. When Kelly asked what's wrong, I said that they were being annoying. So then Johnnie asked me if I hated him sitting here, I said yes. So he said, 'I don't really give an f***', but considering that he asked me it didn't really make any sense. He knew the answer.So after lunch, they were walking down the hall in front of Lauren and I holding hands, Lauren and I started laughing. So they both turned around and Johnnie told me if I was so desperate to have a hand to hold, I should hold Lauren's, but Kelly said 'no, go hold Michael's.' Michael was right behind me, talking to his friends. I was telling Kelly I don't need anybody's hand, I'm an independant women, when Michael comes running through Lauren and I avoiding being pounded by his best friend. Well, Kelly decided this would be a great time to get him to hold my hand. So she tells Michael to come over to us, but I told him no. Since he usually does what I tell him to, he started walking away, but then Johnnie decided to call him over. He kept saying 'Michael get your ass over here' and so Michael got his ass over there. Kelly and Johnnie started yelling at him to hold my hand. He didn't even know what we were talking about, and being as we're not a couple, he hates to lead me on. Holding my hand would lead me on. I wanted to slap Kelly right there for bringing Michael into that, it had nothing to do with him.Kelly and Johnnie thinks the relationship Michael and I have is stupid. But they don't know him, they don't even know me! We have a friendship, one that's so strong he'd never be disloyal to me or even talk behind my back. Hell, Kelly didn't even like Johnnie until she found out he liked her, that never will happen with the two of us. For private reasons, Michael and I aren't dating. I like him a lot and I think he likes me too, but we just don't want to. People don't understand that, especially Johnnie and Kelly. Johnnie and Kelly think they have this great relationship, which in their eyes, might be true. But everyone else sees their flaws. Johnnie flirts with other girls when she's not around and talks about her too. In my opinion, what they have isn't great. Michael and I have something great, not them." I am sorry this is so long, mostly quoting, but that's the way it is. Now do you see? I am the friend stuck in the middle, trying to be friends with both of them, while still wanting to slap them both back into reality and scream at them, "YOU GUYS NEED TO SORT THIS OUT DAMNIT!" and maybe a couple other obscenities.


Nicky at 8:41 PM