10.25.2003
Woo. Redying my hair coz I realised I missed alot of areas... Also I uhh dont remember what I was gonna write. But I saw Flub and Llama at the football game and I was like kdjfbyuvfbalhgt!!! YAAAAAAY!
Nicky at 11:47 PM

10.21.2003
Ah. Quite a bit to cover. So. Starting with today. I went to school... I had double third period... It was boring as hell, and so I just slept and listened to my CD player. But if I was sleeping, I guess I wasn't listening, but whatever. So...thats about all today. Some kids were sitting on our post at lunch so we were mad, and Mr Shirley was a faggot. As usual. Yesterday everyone was all freaking out at my hair and feeling it, and Matt Warner felt it and said it was all cool and bright colored, and I was excited because he's hot. Alot of hot guys like it :-D. I dyed it Raspberry Kamikaze on Sunday. And it was cool! It's like a violent shade of fuscia. Or however that's spelled. Fushia? Fuschia? Anyways. On Saturday, it was homecoming. I was pissed off at Kelly because she made dinner reservations at Kobe for FOUR THIRTY, and of course didn't tell me that. So I had made my appointment for like 5:00. And I had to miss dinner. They brought me my my food in a takeout box though, like that made it better. So in most of my pictures I'm eating with my hand because they didn't even steal me a friggin fork. I really don't think the restaraunt would have noticed :-(. After that we went to Nelson Park, which is basically a litttle spot of grass in the middle of an intersection. There aren't even swings there. What kind of park has no swings? We were too cold to be outside anymore, so we went over to Dunkin Donuts and I got an iced coffee. It was yummy and had alot of caffiene. Then we went to the dance. I wore a red dress that was long. And my hair was curly. I liked it and I had fun. I didn't slowdance with anyone but I had 300 cows worth of fun with my friends and also humping random people :-D. The kid me and Tori always see in the hall who has a cute face and an even cuter mouth was wearing a kilt with a matching tie! It was to die for :-P. Alot of guys who think they're pimps had on white suits. I met Slut's boyfriend, and he was fun with his nose ring. Slut said his girlfriend or whatever, the girl he came with, thought I was really hot. She's bisexual. I hope he was just saying that to make me freak out, because... It's disturbing. Really. How come all these ugly chicks have boyfriends, but I don't? I'm not ugly... And I don't think I have any major personality flaws... Oh well. It's okay. Uh... I don't think I have anything else to say really. I have to go now and start on my faggot World History homework. I have an ortho appointment tomorrow. That means I get to miss first period :-D :-D :-D :-D. But it also means I have to miss the half hour before class starts AND the vocab quiz in Spanish. So I should have my dad pick me up then I guess... No... Damnit. I hate missing quizzes because then I have to stay after school and that sucks. I guess I'll stay after tomorrow, and also I will have to miss my fun time :-(. What a disappointment. The end.

Lyrics for the day.

by now
i should have been somewhere
or gone to school, or fixed my hair
back down
tell it to someone else
who gives a shit and needs your help

cause i found
what i needed
and i don't need you to tell me how you feel
and if i fall
you are not the one that has to cope and deal

all my problems are for me

my god
look at his tattoos and those earrings
he could never get
a good job
go home and beat your kids
so they don't turn out as bad as me

cause i found
what i needed
and i don't need you to tell me how you feel
and if i fall
you are not the one that has to cope and deal

all my problems are for me
i don't need your eyes to see
i will be what i will be

stop coming around cause you bother me
stupid mutherf4cker pull your head out your ass and see
what don't you get, was i stuttering
i don't need to take your shit get away from me

Nicky at 4:10 PM

10.10.2003
OH. MY. GOD.
I gave Allison a notebook of mine so she could copy some World History homework. Later today I just realized that yesterday in Geometry, when I was extremely bored, I wrote to Tori a list of reasons to get Allison Knocked Off. I went over to her house SO FUCKING FAST to get that notebook. I was BOOKING. But I got it before she read it, THANK GOD. God must REALLY REALLY love me. I gotta start going to church more.
Nicky at 5:12 PM

10.09.2003
YO! I'm Alternative according to the "Are you Gothic, Trendy, or Alternative" test. So go download Alternative Baby by Reel Big Fish. Another test tells me I am a goth. Haha. Ignornant people. Yet another tells me I am sometimes labelled goth because ignorant people think wearing black makes you gothic. I laugh at the truth in that. If I was a goth, another test tells me, I would be a cyber/rave goth. Sounds fun! I get to dye my hair FUN COLORS after homecoming! WEEEE! It's gonna be fun ;-). Kelly's trying to hook me up with some kid called Nick who is Jamie's friend. :-|. I don't think he likes me very much because the first time I talked to him I asked if I could rape him, and molest his hair. Haha. It was fun for me, apparently not fun for him. Um... OH! Mr Mudd from ######## is my SIGNET teacher now! Isn't that f4cking fantastic!? He rules compared to the other teacher who I have suspicion for his sexual preference if that even made sense the way I worded it. :-P. I think the dress I'm going to end up buying is this one. Like it? I doooooo! Hopefully it isn't too underdressed, but Hey. OMG! I need to make a hair appointment or else find a fun way to do my hair. I don't want no friggin updo either, I'm going for a 50s theme on the whole hair makeup dress deal. Kelly's getting an updo and wearing this pink dress that I think is boring as f4ck but it's not ugly. If she likes it then it's allll good. Not sure what Linds is going to wear, but it doesn't matter because she's not coming to ours, shes dragging Michael to hers. On Tuesday I did fun hair, AKA dreadlock-resembling twisty things in my hair. It was excellent and I got lots of good feedback ;-). I was glad. Ummm.. Oh, I went to the mall with Kelly and Jamie last weekend and we went to Ikea and laid on all the beds. This guy comes over and him and his wife are all checking out the bed when he's like "Well at least we know it fits alot of people." I was about to say "Yeah, and it's great for orgies," but I figured he wouldn't appreciate my hilarity... Yeah... So it was all good. I think I'm gonna do fun hair again tomorrow and just keep it in for Saturday too. It takes like two hours. Crazy stuff. I am about to go find the Mighty Mighty Bosstones CD that I used to have somewhere that is actually my fajah's, I hear they're making a comeback. I like that song, Knock on Wood. Haha. I'm actually just waiting around and writing in here to waste time because I'm waiting for my dad and brother to leave for football practice so I can take a shower with no time limit and they won't be yelling for me to get out of the bathroom. Hold on while I go get the CD. DAMNIT! I LOST IT! OR SOMETHING! :runs to the bathroom, slams the door, and cries: Ahhhh! I loved that song and I used to always listen to it and now it's GONE forever!!! I wish I still had Kazaa. Then I could download them and not die! And I want to find new bands! AAAAH! I MISS KAZAAAAA! HOW COULD I EVER LIVE WITHOUT IT!?
Anyway. My shower will be soon so I'm off to combat the evil forces of darkness in my eternal quest for the meaning of life... Or look up lyrics even. NOT GAY PORN. As you may know, the codename for gay porn is lyrics. :-D Never make that mistake. Ever.

Nicky at 5:50 PM

10.04.2003
Okay, I won't go on about how I need to improve on my updating. Not much EXTREMELY exciting stuff happens to me, so meh. I'm going to start with the things freshest in my memory. Last night I slept over at Tori's house, and we watched the Core. Apparently it had crap special effects. I thought the stuff I saw was good, but in the end the people on earth survive. I wish there was a movie where they all died, the end. But no. Oh, I must share my dream with you. I was in an overlarge skating rink during a tornado and the tornado came inside and chased us around so I went out the emergency exit. i lived. Then I came back in when it had passed and I sat down with Lauren Riley and played with rubber pencils. Then Adam walks up to me and he has Leonard's hair and I'm like wow. So he sits next to me and I just randomly start kissing him, and I woke up like AAAAAH WHAT THE F4CK! It wasn't a bad dream necessarily, just odd. Then today Tori and I went to the Jubilee in Old Town, and we saw some kids we knew. Slut was there and he introduced me as his Slut from school. Hehe. Basically nothing TOO exciting. But tomorrow I might go to the Rennaisance Festival thing with Allison. It would be fun, right? I'm gonna go now, as I have nothing else to say for the most part. Leonard looks hot as ever ;).
DOWNLOAD TIME!:
-Romance by My Chemical Romance
-My Little Needle and Trouble Breathing by The Alkaline Trio
-Stash Up by OPM
Nicky at 5:45 PM