10.21.2003
Ah. Quite a bit to cover. So. Starting with today. I went to school... I had double third period... It was boring as hell, and so I just slept and listened to my CD player. But if I was sleeping, I guess I wasn't listening, but whatever. So...thats about all today. Some kids were sitting on our post at lunch so we were mad, and Mr Shirley was a faggot. As usual. Yesterday everyone was all freaking out at my hair and feeling it, and Matt Warner felt it and said it was all cool and bright colored, and I was excited because he's hot. Alot of hot guys like it :-D. I dyed it Raspberry Kamikaze on Sunday. And it was cool! It's like a violent shade of fuscia. Or however that's spelled. Fushia? Fuschia? Anyways. On Saturday, it was homecoming. I was pissed off at Kelly because she made dinner reservations at Kobe for FOUR THIRTY, and of course didn't tell me that. So I had made my appointment for like 5:00. And I had to miss dinner. They brought me my my food in a takeout box though, like that made it better. So in most of my pictures I'm eating with my hand because they didn't even steal me a friggin fork. I really don't think the restaraunt would have noticed :-(. After that we went to Nelson Park, which is basically a litttle spot of grass in the middle of an intersection. There aren't even swings there. What kind of park has no swings? We were too cold to be outside anymore, so we went over to Dunkin Donuts and I got an iced coffee. It was yummy and had alot of caffiene. Then we went to the dance. I wore a red dress that was long. And my hair was curly. I liked it and I had fun. I didn't slowdance with anyone but I had 300 cows worth of fun with my friends and also humping random people :-D. The kid me and Tori always see in the hall who has a cute face and an even cuter mouth was wearing a kilt with a matching tie! It was to die for :-P. Alot of guys who think they're pimps had on white suits. I met Slut's boyfriend, and he was fun with his nose ring. Slut said his girlfriend or whatever, the girl he came with, thought I was really hot. She's bisexual. I hope he was just saying that to make me freak out, because... It's disturbing. Really. How come all these ugly chicks have boyfriends, but I don't? I'm not ugly... And I don't think I have any major personality flaws... Oh well. It's okay. Uh... I don't think I have anything else to say really. I have to go now and start on my faggot World History homework. I have an ortho appointment tomorrow. That means I get to miss first period :-D :-D :-D :-D. But it also means I have to miss the half hour before class starts AND the vocab quiz in Spanish. So I should have my dad pick me up then I guess... No... Damnit. I hate missing quizzes because then I have to stay after school and that sucks. I guess I'll stay after tomorrow, and also I will have to miss my fun time :-(. What a disappointment. The end.

Lyrics for the day.

by now
i should have been somewhere
or gone to school, or fixed my hair
back down
tell it to someone else
who gives a shit and needs your help

cause i found
what i needed
and i don't need you to tell me how you feel
and if i fall
you are not the one that has to cope and deal

all my problems are for me

my god
look at his tattoos and those earrings
he could never get
a good job
go home and beat your kids
so they don't turn out as bad as me

cause i found
what i needed
and i don't need you to tell me how you feel
and if i fall
you are not the one that has to cope and deal

all my problems are for me
i don't need your eyes to see
i will be what i will be

stop coming around cause you bother me
stupid mutherf4cker pull your head out your ass and see
what don't you get, was i stuttering
i don't need to take your shit get away from me

Nicky at 4:10 PM