12.18.2003
Mushuuuuuu!
Nicky at 5:47 PM

IamJcn06: so you guys are going out now
nixxi the posEur: what?
nixxi the posEur: i dont know
IamJcn06: dont fucking lie either
nixxi the posEur: i dont know
nixxi the posEur: he didnt like ask me out or whatever so i guess not
IamJcn06: let me ask you something
nixxi the posEur: mmkay
IamJcn06: do you think its right to get involved with a guy who just broke up with his gf of 9 months who loves him more than anything
IamJcn06: and is trying to work things out with him
IamJcn06: and not even wait till things cool down between us?
IamJcn06: just for your own selfish needs
nixxi the posEur: it's not my fault that i like him and he likes me maybe
nixxi the posEur: jesus christ jessie
IamJcn06: bitch...you cant even wait till things cool down
IamJcn06: no its gotta be right away
nixxi the posEur: how am i supposed to know when they cool down, he doesnt talk about it to me
IamJcn06: start kissing him and everything the day we break up..i would not get involved with some guy if he had an ex like me..i dont see how its worth it
nixxi the posEur: i didn't start kissing him and everything the day you broke up
nixxi the posEur: and what do you mean you dont see how it's worth it
IamJcn06: shell end up hating me and all...
IamJcn06: i wouldnt risk that just for a guy
IamJcn06: but whatever
nixxi the posEur: it doesnt matter that much to me if you hate me, if you do it's for stupid reasons. steve and i arent having an affair, you guys broke up, and it's been a while
IamJcn06: not really
IamJcn06: after 9 months
IamJcn06: and everyone seems to agree with me anyway
nixxi the posEur: who is everyone and what are you agreeing on
IamJcn06: people, they think you are a slut and he is the biggest jerk
nixxi the posEur: i really don't see how i am a slut, but if that's how they feel then okay, because i know that i'm not.
IamJcn06: riiight
nixxi the posEur: what do you mean "right"?
IamJcn06: *sigh*
nixxi the posEur: why don't you explain to me how this makes me a slut, i'm dying to know.
IamJcn06: umm moving on from nick so quickly to this guy who JUST broke up with his gf
IamJcn06: and not caring
nixxi the posEur: i do care, and i didn't move on from nick so quickly.
nixxi the posEur: he broke up with you at least a month ago
IamJcn06: oh a month...
IamJcn06: ok
nixxi the posEur: my opinion of a slut is someone who fucks anything with legs whenever she can get some, but i guess thats just me then.

YAAAAAY! Hahahaha. PSYCHOBITCHING! WOOO!
Nicky at 3:54 PM

12.15.2003
skankininatuBa (10:38:32 PM): uncoolness nicky
skankininatuBa (10:38:37 PM): i was reading nicks xanga
nixxi the posEur (10:38:38 PM): ?
skankininatuBa (10:38:40 PM): you would kiss him?
nixxi the posEur (10:38:49 PM): what?
skankininatuBa (10:38:53 PM): thats what you said
nixxi the posEur (10:38:56 PM): when
skankininatuBa (10:39:12 PM): you signed his thing that asked a whole bunch of questions
nixxi the posEur (10:39:28 PM): ...
nixxi the posEur (10:39:33 PM): i dont remember
skankininatuBa (10:39:34 PM): like i said...just come clean with me nicky
nixxi the posEur (10:39:38 PM): I DONT REMEMBER
skankininatuBa (10:39:58 PM): one second..let me refresh your memory
nixxi the posEur (10:40:08 PM): mmk
skankininatuBa (10:40:31 PM): http://www.xanga.com/item.aspx?user=emosucks_skarocks&tab=weblogs&uid=48646013
skankininatuBa (10:41:54 PM): remember now?
skankininatuBa (10:42:52 PM): are you dead?
nixxi the posEur (10:43:26 PM): im slowwww
nixxi the posEur (10:43:28 PM): waiting
skankininatuBa (10:43:49 PM): well if you dont remember the questions looked like this
skankininatuBa (10:43:51 PM): 01] When/How did we meet ?
02] Have we ever met in person & have we hung out ?
03] What was your 1st impression of me ?
04] Have we ever talked on the phone ?
05] Have you ever seen me cry?
06] Have you ever seen me dance ?
07] Have you ever seen me drunk/high ?
08] If you can spend a day with me, what would we do ?
09] Have we ever gotten in a fight ?
10] If you could give me a gift, what would it be ?
11] Would you hug me ?
12] Would you kiss me ?
13] What major thing do we have in common ?
14] What is my best feature ?
15] Have you ever liked me ?
16] Have you ever made me laugh/have i ever made you laugh ?
17] Describe me using four or less words:

nixxi the posEur (10:44:09 PM): yeah
nixxi the posEur (10:44:11 PM): okay
skankininatuBa (10:44:19 PM): and you said you would kiss him
skankininatuBa (10:44:24 PM): sorry for waking you for this
nixxi the posEur (10:44:24 PM): i didnt
skankininatuBa (10:44:27 PM): but it bugs me
skankininatuBa (10:44:28 PM): yeah you did
nixxi the posEur (10:44:29 PM): i said maybe
skankininatuBa (10:44:39 PM): maybe in girl talk means yes
nixxi the posEur (10:44:44 PM): it depends on the circumstances
skankininatuBa (10:45:04 PM): either way your definately leading nick on to make him think you like him
skankininatuBa (10:45:07 PM): i would think that to
nixxi the posEur (10:45:15 PM): steeeeve
skankininatuBa (10:45:20 PM): listen nicky im sorry
skankininatuBa (10:45:23 PM): please dont get mad at me
nixxi the posEur (10:45:29 PM): whaaat
skankininatuBa (10:45:50 PM): i dont want you getting all mad at me
nixxi the posEur (10:46:11 PM): well you really dont have to keep bringing it up
nixxi the posEur (10:46:39 PM): and you KNOW i like him, but its not alot and it doesnt matter
skankininatuBa (10:46:49 PM): but it bugs the hell out of me
nixxi the posEur (10:46:56 PM): then ignore it
skankininatuBa (10:46:57 PM): and it does matter to me
nixxi the posEur (10:46:58 PM): aahhhhh
nixxi the posEur (10:47:05 PM): well i cant do anything about it!
skankininatuBa (10:47:05 PM): i cant just ignore something like that nicky
skankininatuBa (10:47:16 PM): what if i liked tori?
skankininatuBa (10:47:30 PM): i mean really think about it
skankininatuBa (10:47:39 PM): and you knew tori liked me
nixxi the posEur (10:48:01 PM): i dont knowwww
skankininatuBa (10:48:27 PM): thats a crap answer nicky
skankininatuBa (10:48:31 PM): and i really dont know if i can do this
nixxi the posEur (10:48:31 PM): IM SORRY
nixxi the posEur (10:49:00 PM): its not like if i really liked nick he would actually want to go out again
nixxi the posEur (10:49:13 PM): personally, if i was him, id be pissed at me
skankininatuBa (10:49:16 PM): thats an assumption
skankininatuBa (10:49:19 PM): and he would want to
skankininatuBa (10:49:26 PM): and if you KNEW for sure he wanted to
skankininatuBa (10:49:31 PM): you wouldnt have a thing to do with me
skankininatuBa (10:49:34 PM): and that saddens me
nixxi the posEur (10:49:35 PM): YES I WOULD
skankininatuBa (10:49:44 PM): and thats the only reason that you like me instead of him
nixxi the posEur (10:49:46 PM): i like you alot steve
nixxi the posEur (10:49:47 PM): no it isnt
skankininatuBa (10:49:54 PM): im an easy target..but your not sure if nick likes you
skankininatuBa (10:50:00 PM): so your playing your cards straight
nixxi the posEur (10:50:02 PM): you are not an easy target
nixxi the posEur (10:50:04 PM): i am NOT
skankininatuBa (10:50:15 PM): while yet still keeping your options open
skankininatuBa (10:50:18 PM): not bad
skankininatuBa (10:50:35 PM): and thats exactly how things seem to me
nixxi the posEur (10:50:41 PM): GODDAMNIT STEVE
skankininatuBa (10:51:09 PM): seriously nicky if i cant at least talk to you about this stuff then whats the point of us having any kind of relationship?
skankininatuBa (10:51:20 PM): i mean I REALLY LIKE YOU!!
nixxi the posEur (10:51:21 PM): you can talk to me about itt
skankininatuBa (10:51:29 PM): and i dont want to loose you to nick
skankininatuBa (10:51:35 PM): and thats whats happening!
nixxi the posEur (10:51:42 PM): why do you think that
skankininatuBa (10:51:50 PM): because its soo fucking obvious
skankininatuBa (10:51:53 PM): i dont want to be a fool
skankininatuBa (10:52:09 PM): i just want you to do what you really want to do...please
nixxi the posEur (10:52:21 PM): alright fine
nixxi the posEur (10:52:24 PM): im going to tell you.
nixxi the posEur (10:52:52 PM): i REALLY like you ALOT and i like nick alot too but i am scared to tell you that because i know you are going to hate me
nixxi the posEur (10:53:03 PM): but im not trying to keep the cards open or whatever
nixxi the posEur (10:53:07 PM): i really am not
nixxi the posEur (10:53:13 PM): im trying SO HARD not to like him
skankininatuBa (10:53:14 PM): your fucked
nixxi the posEur (10:53:17 PM): because i dont want to lose you
skankininatuBa (10:53:18 PM): seriously
nixxi the posEur (10:53:20 PM): i know
nixxi the posEur (10:53:24 PM): thats why i didnt want to tell you
skankininatuBa (10:53:29 PM): bad idea..neither of us are gunna like you in the end
skankininatuBa (10:53:31 PM): and if i knew this 2 days ago i wouldnt have done what i did
skankininatuBa (10:53:39 PM): but you also lied to me
nixxi the posEur (10:53:42 PM): i know you are both gonna hate me
nixxi the posEur (10:53:43 PM): god
nixxi the posEur (10:53:47 PM): it SUCKS STEVE
nixxi the posEur (10:53:51 PM): i didnt mean to do it
skankininatuBa (10:54:03 PM): you need to decide
nixxi the posEur (10:54:14 PM): i like you steve
skankininatuBa (10:54:32 PM): meh..the only reason you really like me is for sexual purposes
nixxi the posEur (10:54:35 PM): NO
nixxi the posEur (10:54:37 PM): it is not
skankininatuBa (10:54:44 PM): it makes sense
skankininatuBa (10:55:11 PM): i really think thats why you like me
nixxi the posEur (10:55:18 PM): it isnt like that
nixxi the posEur (10:55:19 PM): i swear
skankininatuBa (10:55:24 PM): be honest dammit
nixxi the posEur (10:55:28 PM): I AM BEING HONEST
skankininatuBa (10:55:28 PM): you might as well be
nixxi the posEur (10:55:32 PM): BELIEVE ME DAMNIT
skankininatuBa (10:56:22 PM): like i said your gunna have to choose between us..and to be honest whichever it is...the loser will probably hate you
skankininatuBa (10:56:25 PM): at least for a while
nixxi the posEur (10:56:38 PM): i know its gonna end up with both of you hating me
skankininatuBa (10:56:45 PM): and if you dont choose between us..we will both hate you
nixxi the posEur (10:56:45 PM): so i dont even see why i should try
nixxi the posEur (10:57:12 PM): if i choose you, nick probably wont care THAT much, but you'll keep thinking i dont like you
skankininatuBa (10:57:22 PM): and yeah i know im the easy target..but i really think you like nick more
nixxi the posEur (10:57:25 PM): and if i choose him, i dont think he likes me, and then you would HATE me
skankininatuBa (10:57:29 PM): i wont hate you
nixxi the posEur (10:57:33 PM): YOU ARENT THE EASY TARGET
nixxi the posEur (10:57:36 PM): and i dont like him more
skankininatuBa (10:57:42 PM): and i know what your saying..thats why i am the easy way
skankininatuBa (10:57:45 PM): cause of what you just said
skankininatuBa (10:57:47 PM): i know that
nixxi the posEur (10:57:59 PM): no
skankininatuBa (10:57:59 PM): but i know you like him more dammit..so just admit to it and stop this whole charade
nixxi the posEur (10:58:02 PM): I DONT
skankininatuBa (10:58:16 PM): then which one of us do you like more?
nixxi the posEur (10:58:19 PM): YOU
nixxi the posEur (10:58:22 PM): why would i lie?
nixxi the posEur (10:58:26 PM): it doesnt matter anymore
skankininatuBa (10:58:28 PM): i dont believe it..
nixxi the posEur (10:58:31 PM): no matter what i do, you'll hate me
skankininatuBa (10:58:37 PM): it doesnt make sense to me
skankininatuBa (10:58:52 PM): i dont hate anyone..im steve
nixxi the posEur (10:58:57 PM): yeah whatever
skankininatuBa (10:59:03 PM): i wont hate you..
nixxi the posEur (10:59:05 PM): you wont want to talk to me anymore
nixxi the posEur (10:59:12 PM): it will be just like with jessie, you dont talk to her
skankininatuBa (10:59:23 PM): i dont talk to her cause she stalks me
skankininatuBa (10:59:27 PM): talk to my very good friend kim..
skankininatuBa (10:59:30 PM): you see me with her alot..
skankininatuBa (10:59:38 PM): i gave her a hug that one day after saying goodbye to you
skankininatuBa (10:59:43 PM): i went out with her for like 4 months
skankininatuBa (10:59:52 PM): and we remained good friends
skankininatuBa (11:00:00 PM): me and jessie just didnt have anything in common
skankininatuBa (11:00:02 PM): where me and you do
skankininatuBa (11:00:09 PM): so i would still be your friend
nixxi the posEur (11:00:23 PM): i dont know what to say though
nixxi the posEur (11:00:24 PM): argh
skankininatuBa (11:00:34 PM): im saying be honest with yourself
nixxi the posEur (11:00:43 PM): i am being honest
nixxi the posEur (11:00:49 PM): i like you more
nixxi the posEur (11:01:08 PM): only you're definetly an asshole on occasion
skankininatuBa (11:01:17 PM): exactly..
skankininatuBa (11:01:22 PM): and nick isnt
skankininatuBa (11:01:22 PM): so there is your answer
skankininatuBa (11:01:34 PM): im already soo fucked up with girl problems
skankininatuBa (11:01:58 PM): im like never gunna have another girlfriend after this whole ordeal
nixxi the posEur (11:02:13 PM): so i guess you dont like me anymore
skankininatuBa (11:02:19 PM): but every time i have been an "asshole" think about it
skankininatuBa (11:02:24 PM): its been about you liking nick
skankininatuBa (11:02:31 PM): so i dont see where im wrong
skankininatuBa (11:02:39 PM): or where im the asshole
skankininatuBa (11:03:01 PM): nicky..to be honest with you no matter what happens there will always be a soft spot in my heart for you
skankininatuBa (11:03:08 PM): im not a stupid kid nicky..
nixxi the posEur (11:03:21 PM): i know you arent
skankininatuBa (11:03:25 PM): i knew you like nick..what do you take me for?
skankininatuBa (11:03:47 PM): but then everytime you would explain it away and i would look like an asshole
skankininatuBa (11:03:52 PM): when in fact i was right
nixxi the posEur (11:04:06 PM): jldsfvbiuabfdgbafdhv
skankininatuBa (11:04:22 PM): what would you do nicky?
skankininatuBa (11:04:25 PM): if you were me right now?
nixxi the posEur (11:04:33 PM): i dont know
nixxi the posEur (11:04:40 PM): i really dont
nixxi the posEur (11:04:57 PM): i hate this so much
skankininatuBa (11:05:08 PM): being the nice guy that i am,..ill just let you think about it..and either way im here for you
skankininatuBa (11:05:15 PM): but you do have to decide
nixxi the posEur (11:05:27 PM): i know...
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nixxi the posEur (11:06:25 PM): so you think i fucked nick.
skankininatuBa (11:06:33 PM): i dont know
skankininatuBa (11:06:42 PM): i would like to know
nixxi the posEur (11:06:42 PM): i know thats what youre trying to say
nixxi the posEur (11:06:47 PM): i did NOT
skankininatuBa (11:06:49 PM): alright
nixxi the posEur (11:06:57 PM): all we did was kiss, one time.
skankininatuBa (11:06:57 PM): no im trying to ask why you dont like me
nixxi the posEur (11:07:09 PM): i DO like you
skankininatuBa (11:07:13 PM): i would think nick would tell me if you did
nixxi the posEur (11:07:15 PM): haven't i been saying that the whole time
nixxi the posEur (11:07:20 PM): why would he tell you?
nixxi the posEur (11:07:30 PM): i dont talk to him about it, i dont think he cares
skankininatuBa (11:09:18 PM): im a very forgiving person
skankininatuBa (11:09:30 PM): but you need to make up your mind nicky
skankininatuBa (11:09:36 PM): im afraid you may still be doing stuff with nick
nixxi the posEur (11:09:38 PM): i already told you
nixxi the posEur (11:09:39 PM): I AM NOT
nixxi the posEur (11:09:41 PM): ask him
skankininatuBa (11:09:53 PM): but there is no way of knowing
skankininatuBa (11:09:59 PM): what if you and nick were alone?
skankininatuBa (11:10:05 PM): what would happen?
nixxi the posEur (11:10:15 PM): probably nothing.
skankininatuBa (11:10:22 PM): but see there is the word probably
skankininatuBa (11:10:29 PM): if he came on to you...you wouldnt stop him
skankininatuBa (11:10:36 PM): and i...cant
skankininatuBa (11:10:44 PM): i cant deal with that
skankininatuBa (11:10:58 PM): having to constantly worry about you cheating on me with him
skankininatuBa (11:11:20 PM): do you not understand?
nixxi the posEur (11:11:28 PM): i do understand
nixxi the posEur (11:11:34 PM): but i wouldnt cheat on you
skankininatuBa (11:11:46 PM): i dunno about that either
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skankininatuBa (11:13:28 PM): but what if i did this with one of these girls that talk to me and say im hot and stuff
skankininatuBa (11:13:36 PM): would you not consider that cheating
nixxi the posEur (11:13:39 PM): did what with them
nixxi the posEur (11:13:44 PM): what we did?
skankininatuBa (11:13:49 PM): yes
nixxi the posEur (11:14:07 PM): i probably would
skankininatuBa (11:14:12 PM): exactly.
skankininatuBa (11:14:29 PM): i mean nicky..i really am going the extra mile for you
skankininatuBa (11:14:39 PM): but there isnt that much more i can do
nixxi the posEur (11:15:03 PM): well i really dont know what i can say or do
nixxi the posEur (11:15:17 PM): i have already told you what i think and how i feel
nixxi the posEur (11:15:22 PM): but you dont seem to believe me
skankininatuBa (11:15:34 PM): why should i believe you?
skankininatuBa (11:15:41 PM): i mean to be perfectly honest..
skankininatuBa (11:16:01 PM): if you had this same conversation with nick he would have said something along the lines of "well fuck that"
skankininatuBa (11:16:01 PM): and wouldnt have talked to you about it
nixxi the posEur (11:16:24 PM): i know that
skankininatuBa (11:16:40 PM): so this better earn me some serious coolness points
nixxi the posEur (11:16:52 PM): yeah, maybe.
nixxi the posEur (11:16:56 PM): im going to bed now.
skankininatuBa (11:17:01 PM): wtf?
skankininatuBa (11:17:05 PM): are you sure about that?
nixxi the posEur (11:17:11 PM): why shouldnt i
skankininatuBa (11:17:11 PM): that could be a really bad decision
skankininatuBa (11:17:17 PM): cause im not done talking to you
nixxi the posEur (11:17:19 PM): im tired and i am confused
nixxi the posEur (11:17:23 PM): agh then fucking talk
skankininatuBa (11:17:36 PM): your pushing it
nixxi the posEur (11:17:45 PM): sorry mother
skankininatuBa (11:17:47 PM): and i really want coolness points for this..
skankininatuBa (11:17:49 PM): you know what
skankininatuBa (11:17:49 PM): whatever
skankininatuBa (11:17:51 PM): i was gunna give your a shot and stuff
skankininatuBa (11:17:58 PM): but if your gunna be like this..no
nixxi the posEur (11:18:01 PM): steve
nixxi the posEur (11:18:06 PM): im sorry
nixxi the posEur (11:18:13 PM): i didnt mean it im just tired
nixxi the posEur (11:18:16 PM): god
skankininatuBa (11:18:19 PM): alright
skankininatuBa (11:18:21 PM): listen nicky..
skankininatuBa (11:18:32 PM): regardless of what you do..i will ALWAYS be here for you
skankininatuBa (11:18:37 PM): you understand that?
skankininatuBa (11:18:39 PM): i care about you lots
nixxi the posEur (11:18:42 PM): yeah...
skankininatuBa (11:18:46 PM): alright..
skankininatuBa (11:18:49 PM): thats all i wanted to say
skankininatuBa (11:18:54 PM): other than that i dont know what to say..
skankininatuBa (11:19:04 PM): cause its out of my control
skankininatuBa (11:19:04 PM): its all up to you
skankininatuBa (11:19:09 PM): and what you want to do
skankininatuBa (11:19:30 PM): and one more thing
nixxi the posEur (11:19:33 PM): hmm
skankininatuBa (11:19:37 PM): please dont lie to me
nixxi the posEur (11:19:43 PM): i dont lie to you
skankininatuBa (11:19:45 PM): it really hurts my feelings
skankininatuBa (11:19:53 PM): more than you would know
nixxi the posEur (11:20:07 PM): well it hurts my feelings when you dont believe a goddamn thing i say
skankininatuBa (11:20:29 PM): you have lied to me soo much why should i believe you
skankininatuBa (11:20:32 PM): its hard to believe you nicky
skankininatuBa (11:20:35 PM): it really is
nixxi the posEur (11:20:40 PM): I HAVENT LIED TO YOU SO MUCH
skankininatuBa (11:20:46 PM): i honestly think your playing both sides
nixxi the posEur (11:20:50 PM): i am not
skankininatuBa (11:20:55 PM): you said you only liked nick a teensy weensy bit
skankininatuBa (11:21:03 PM): but your probably saying the same thing to him about me
nixxi the posEur (11:21:08 PM): i am not
nixxi the posEur (11:21:13 PM): i dont talk to him about you
skankininatuBa (11:21:45 PM): i mean i understand how you feel and stuff..
skankininatuBa (11:21:46 PM): but i honestly dont get it
skankininatuBa (11:21:56 PM): i mean you never really talk to nick in person or on the phone?
skankininatuBa (11:22:19 PM): unless you havent told me about it
skankininatuBa (11:22:37 PM): which wouldnt suprise me..but answer me truthfully
nixxi the posEur (11:23:20 PM): i dont talk to him, and i told you i l ike you more and i am pretty sure that i only like him temporarily and its so confusing to me
skankininatuBa (11:23:24 PM): ....
nixxi the posEur (11:23:41 PM): and i would tell you if i talked to him on thephone
skankininatuBa (11:24:03 PM): i dont get it..you never hang out with him..and when you do you guys never talk
nixxi the posEur (11:24:39 PM): yeah well i dont get it either
skankininatuBa (11:24:40 PM): and that leads me to believe its for more shallow reasons
skankininatuBa (11:24:40 PM): people can be anyone online
skankininatuBa (11:25:01 PM): i find myself to be different online
skankininatuBa (11:25:01 PM): usually more open
nixxi the posEur (11:25:26 PM): i told you i dont get it either
skankininatuBa (11:25:54 PM): but then i have my ultimate theory
skankininatuBa (11:26:02 PM): its the whole..you like him because he likes you
skankininatuBa (11:26:10 PM): and thats what this is..and im pretty sure
nixxi the posEur (11:26:22 PM): NO IT ISNT
nixxi the posEur (11:26:30 PM): i dont even think he likes me so why would it be like that
skankininatuBa (11:26:44 PM): i dunno..cause he did like you
skankininatuBa (11:26:50 PM): but then why did you want to break up with him
skankininatuBa (11:26:57 PM): if you still liked him
skankininatuBa (11:26:58 PM): this i dont get..
skankininatuBa (11:27:02 PM): please explain
nixxi the posEur (11:27:29 PM): i really dont know, steve. i really dont.
nixxi the posEur (11:27:42 PM): i broke up with him because i didnt like him very much anymore
nixxi the posEur (11:27:56 PM): but now i do like him but i think its gonna go away like it did last time
nixxi the posEur (11:27:58 PM): and aaaagh
skankininatuBa (11:28:11 PM): but what if it doesnt
skankininatuBa (11:28:19 PM): what if liking me goes away
nixxi the posEur (11:28:32 PM): then i don't know
skankininatuBa (11:28:35 PM): this is what i fear
nixxi the posEur (11:28:44 PM): i will be more confused than i am now
skankininatuBa (11:28:53 PM): think about how i feel
skankininatuBa (11:29:06 PM): nick is my one of my goddamn best friends
nixxi the posEur (11:29:13 PM): i know!
skankininatuBa (11:29:13 PM): i see him everyday
skankininatuBa (11:29:23 PM): i talk to him all the time
skankininatuBa (11:29:38 PM): how am i supposed to live knowing that you like him?
skankininatuBa (11:30:00 PM): everytime i look at him i will be reminded about how he is important in your life just as i am
skankininatuBa (11:30:04 PM): yet im not supposed to care
skankininatuBa (11:30:07 PM): or say anyhting
nixxi the posEur (11:30:15 PM): but you
skankininatuBa (11:30:21 PM): cause he doesnt know whats going on
nixxi the posEur (11:30:22 PM): are more important to me
skankininatuBa (11:30:24 PM): and i cant tell him
skankininatuBa (11:30:31 PM): or else he would hate you
skankininatuBa (11:30:39 PM): and i wouldnt do that to you
skankininatuBa (11:30:56 PM): i like you nicky..
skankininatuBa (11:31:03 PM): but i dont know how much more i can take..
skankininatuBa (11:31:05 PM): im trying
skankininatuBa (11:31:12 PM): please respect that
nixxi the posEur (11:31:24 PM): then just get rid of me, because theres nothing i know how to do!
nixxi the posEur (11:31:26 PM): i really like you
nixxi the posEur (11:31:40 PM): but if you cant take it then i dont want to hurt you anymore
nixxi the posEur (11:31:45 PM): even if it hurts me too
skankininatuBa (11:32:07 PM): but why give up when there still is hope?
nixxi the posEur (11:32:32 PM): i dont know
nixxi the posEur (11:32:37 PM): because i dont know what to do
nixxi the posEur (11:32:47 PM): and i dont know how to handle anything
skankininatuBa (11:33:29 PM): well nicky like i said everything is up to you now
nixxi the posEur (11:33:45 PM): goddamnit
nixxi the posEur (11:34:00 PM): i told you, i like you steve
nixxi the posEur (11:34:04 PM): i want you
skankininatuBa (11:34:12 PM): and you also told me that you like nick..and you want him too
nixxi the posEur (11:34:24 PM): i dont want to go out with him or anything
nixxi the posEur (11:34:31 PM): i really dont know
skankininatuBa (11:34:35 PM): you just wana fuck him?
nixxi the posEur (11:34:38 PM): NO STEVE
nixxi the posEur (11:34:40 PM): i DONT
skankininatuBa (11:34:47 PM): haha..sorry..had to have the sex thing
nixxi the posEur (11:34:54 PM): is that what you think though, really?
skankininatuBa (11:35:01 PM): its possible
nixxi the posEur (11:35:05 PM): ahhhhh
skankininatuBa (11:35:10 PM): and dammit nicky..you are really hot
skankininatuBa (11:35:23 PM): i mean think about this..
skankininatuBa (11:35:57 PM): i must really like you...cause i mean you know..or maybe you dont know..that i could pretty much have alot of girls..but no..i like you..and even after all this i still like you..and wanna be with you..and only you
nixxi the posEur (11:36:27 PM): and i want to be with you, but you dont believe me
skankininatuBa (11:36:32 PM): but not only me
nixxi the posEur (11:36:52 PM): can i please go to sleep steve
skankininatuBa (11:39:01 PM): thanks for waiting
nixxi the posEur (11:39:05 PM): yeah
skankininatuBa (11:39:09 PM): your the best
nixxi the posEur (11:39:22 PM): so anyway
nixxi the posEur (11:39:29 PM): can i please go to bed now
nixxi the posEur (11:39:35 PM): i need to sleep
skankininatuBa (11:39:40 PM): you really want to leave like this?
nixxi the posEur (11:39:41 PM): and think
nixxi the posEur (11:39:43 PM): NO
nixxi the posEur (11:39:44 PM): i dont
nixxi the posEur (11:39:53 PM): but the conversation is going in circles
skankininatuBa (11:39:58 PM): indeed it is
nixxi the posEur (11:40:02 PM): and i am falling asleep like mad
skankininatuBa (11:40:08 PM): alright sweetheart
skankininatuBa (11:40:18 PM): if you havent noticed ive gotten over the whole issue..
skankininatuBa (11:40:27 PM): that is if you like me more than nick
nixxi the posEur (11:40:32 PM): which i do
skankininatuBa (11:40:34 PM): but if you like him more just tell me
skankininatuBa (11:40:41 PM): and i guess i understand
skankininatuBa (11:40:57 PM): cause ive liked more than one person at a time
skankininatuBa (11:41:07 PM): so i really cant get mad at you for it
nixxi the posEur (11:41:11 PM): okay
skankininatuBa (11:41:14 PM): although you know i cant help but be jealous
nixxi the posEur (11:41:16 PM): thank you then
skankininatuBa (11:41:20 PM): but thats a guy thing
skankininatuBa (11:41:25 PM): im gunna be
skankininatuBa (11:41:27 PM): but o well
skankininatuBa (11:41:28 PM): ill live
nixxi the posEur (11:41:39 PM): see you tomorrow stevieness
skankininatuBa (11:41:42 PM): hopefully it will pass..if not then i know i have had fun with you
skankininatuBa (11:41:46 PM): cause your awesome
skankininatuBa (11:42:02 PM): im gunna miss you nicky
nixxi the posEur (11:42:07 PM): imma miss you too
nixxi the posEur (11:42:18 PM): goodnight
skankininatuBa (11:42:22 PM): goodnight

B-B-B-BIPOLAR!? BUT WAIT, THERE'S MORE!

skankininatuBa: im the saddest ska kid ever

Auto response from skankininatuBa: chores

nixxi the posEur: why are you
skankininatuBa: cause i have soo many reasons to be sad
skankininatuBa: im really a bad person to like nicky
skankininatuBa: seriously.
skankininatuBa: i just wish i could be like happy and not annoying and stuff
skankininatuBa: but even like right this second i know im annoying you and making you like me less
nixxi the posEur: youre not annoting all the time
skankininatuBa: so i think i will just shit up and try and act happy
skankininatuBa: haha shut*
skankininatuBa: shitting up would be interesting to see
skankininatuBa: lol
skankininatuBa: haha
nixxi the posEur: yeah..
skankininatuBa: but seriously nicky..if you want to be my "girlfriend" tell me now
skankininatuBa: and if not alright then
nixxi the posEur: i do
skankininatuBa: we can be whatever you want to be
nixxi the posEur: jesus
skankininatuBa: then you HAVE to tell nick
skankininatuBa: you cant keep doing this
skankininatuBa: I cant keep doing this
nixxi the posEur: then YOu tell nick
skankininatuBa: nick is one of my best friends..do you seriously expect me to tell him this:
skankininatuBa: ?
skankininatuBa: it would be soooo much easier for you to tell him
nixxi the posEur: well i dont know how to an i am not going to
nixxi the posEur: hes not stupid, im sure he knows anyway
skankininatuBa: no...he is kinda slow
skankininatuBa: on some issues
skankininatuBa: i seriously dont think he has any idea
nixxi the posEur: well f;nvsadf;vbaegh;adfnb'[aothn
skankininatuBa: is he talking to you?
nixxi the posEur: inform him then
nixxi the posEur: yes
nixxi the posEur: a little
skankininatuBa: he isnt answering me
nixxi the posEur: we were talking about crayons.. hes not answering me now
nixxi the posEur: oh yeah he is
skankininatuBa: alright
skankininatuBa: hmm..
skankininatuBa: yeah..
skankininatuBa: skankininatuBa: do you still have feelings for nicky?
xkmartbluEsx: i still like her, yea
nixxi the posEur: wow
nixxi the posEur: that is surprising to me
skankininatuBa: now this is the part where steve says goodby3e
nixxi the posEur: WHY
skankininatuBa: cause now you know for sure he likes you
nixxi the posEur: so what
skankininatuBa: so goodbye nicky
nixxi the posEur: WHY
skankininatuBa: heh..you know why
nixxi the posEur: but i like you alot steve

Auto response from skankininatuBa: getting piss drunk..and then maybe passing out

nixxi the posEur: ugh
nixxi the posEur: fine then, fuck this.
skankininatuBa: WHAT COULD YOU POSSIBLY EXPECT ME TO DO?!
nixxi the posEur: I DONT KNOW
skankininatuBa: the kid still likes you nicky
nixxi the posEur: so WHAT
skankininatuBa: that changes everything
skankininatuBa: and you know it does
skankininatuBa: that means WE CAN NEVER go out for real
skankininatuBa: and that sucks
nixxi the posEur: sdjkfzhsvc zxcvhuireg
skankininatuBa: and your leading him on
skankininatuBa: no wonder he still likes you
nixxi the posEur: how am i
nixxi the posEur: i dont know
nixxi the posEur: what youre talking about
skankininatuBa: i dont blame him
skankininatuBa: and you like him too
skankininatuBa: leading on..- making him think you like him too
nixxi the posEur: i dont see how i am
nixxi the posEur: i really dont
skankininatuBa: its obvious
skankininatuBa: ,ldafjfl;jkdfglijdf
skankininatuBa: if i were a bystander..i would probably say you like nick more than me
nixxi the posEur: Why would you say that
skankininatuBa: im like never mentioned
skankininatuBa: you always talk about nick quote him and talk to him and stuff
nixxi the posEur: i always talk about you and talk to you
skankininatuBa: but nowhere public
skankininatuBa: like xanga and stuff
skankininatuBa: NEVER
nixxi the posEur: cause i dont want to lose nick as a friend
skankininatuBa: and you always sign his stuff more affectionately
nixxi the posEur: i dontt
skankininatuBa: but your loosing me completely
skankininatuBa: and i guess you dont realize it
nixxi the posEur: apparently not
skankininatuBa: i really can only take so much nicky
skankininatuBa: im sorry
skankininatuBa: i try
skankininatuBa: i try to be a good person..i really do..and everything inside of me that is good..is saying that me and you are wrong..
skankininatuBa: maybe not being together is wrong but hiding it is wrong
skankininatuBa: what you are doing to me and nick is soo wrong
nixxi the posEur: ITS NOT ENTIRELY ME
skankininatuBa: your trying sooo hard to keep him that you dont even notice me
nixxi the posEur: YOURE DOING IT TOO
skankininatuBa: i never said i wasnt
nixxi the posEur: just fucking tell him
nixxi the posEur: god
nixxi the posEur: stop trying to put all the blame on me
nixxi the posEur: and i do notice you
skankininatuBa: im not blaming you for anything
skankininatuBa: im saying you dont realize that if im gunna be with someone...i need to feel special to them
skankininatuBa: i feel just like anyone else to you
skankininatuBa: but you place nick higher than me
nixxi the posEur: i DO NOT
skankininatuBa: and yeah..it makes me sad
skankininatuBa: but what can you expect
Nicky at 5:36 PM